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Dear God,

Please help me to release from everything that is holding me hostage and stagnating my progress. Law school is where you have called me to be in this season. Let me let go of what will soon be behind me and move toward all that is ahead. Help me to diligently work on launching iEmpowerME and work the purpose you have called me to. Take all the dead weight off of me and help me clear my mind! Thanks in advance.

Nia

.must haves.

I have met many great men  who have unique characteristics, and great personalities. I haven’t met one that I am in awe of or googlely eyed about. However, there are some basic standards that I specifically look for.

Must have 1: A relationship with God

God is a top priority, and is number 1 in life and relationships. Being able to pray with me and having a spiritual grounding is the first thing that I look for. I need a man who can cover me spiritually, and someone I am equally yoked with.

Must have 2: A leader and provider

A man who is a visionary and has goals is a leader. Any man that I am in a relationship with must know how to lead in his faith, finances, and future, and family. Being a provider is a major part of being a leader. My man must be able to provide for my family emotionally, financially, spiritually, and physically(being present and active). 

I don’t need much but these are fundamental for longevity.

Promise>Pain

 No one likes being disappointed, hurt, or rejected. However, when we are most broken and vulnerable we are often at our best. This is one of the worst feelings in the world to be denied or rejected for something that you sincerely wanted. One of the first things that I tend to do is question God, or his decision. It is so unfortunate, and the pain stings when my very creator tells me “No” to an opportunity that I want. Although it hurts the most, I know that he holds everything in his hands: my future, my life, and all of the promises/ blessings that he has in store for me.

Last week, 5/30 I was interviewed and being considered for a position as an assistant to the First Lady(Lady O) & Vice President(Yep Joe B.) for the 2012 campaign in Chicago. Yesterday I followed up and inquired about the position, and I found out that I was not selected for the position. Distraught, hurt, and broken I had to begin to put things in perspective and be grateful for the opportunity to even be considered. I wanted this opportunity more than law school, but I don’t know what God is keeping me from. Maybe he knew that if I took this opportunity, law school would not be in my future, or I would focus on working in the White House and not the main things.

Today was one of the hardest days of my life, not getting this job. I never thought I would see the day that I would cry over a job but today was that day.Especially a job in politics. It is so amazing that politics and government is something that I fell into but I absolutely love. I know that the promises that God has for my life are greater than this temporary pain, but I must say this really, really hurt me. However I am also so humbled that God thought enough of me to consider me for such a position.

The opportunities are absolutely endless, and I don’t know what God has in store in the future. I am eternally grateful and I am ready!