.The Struggle of Singledom.
Being single is a great time for self-exploration and discovery. It is a wonderful time for one to discover the possibilities and greatness within. I am often told that being single is a time for me to develop my relationship with God.
But no one ever recommends what to do, or how to respond when God is number 1 in my life, and my walk with him is a daily journey that I embark on, seeking Him first. Being single can be a lonely tumultuous road. It hurts to never truly have experienced love and to be merely infatuated with guys, or being a magnet to men who are too old and unappealing.
It hurts that at 24, there are not many men in my life that I am truly be interested in dating. I look around and what I see are several other smart, beautiful, God-fearing & loving young black women who are full but empty, whole yet broken, content yet unfulfilled.
Some days I let my flaws and insecurities get the best of me, as I try to understand why I have never had a constant boyfriend, and a relationship. By being myself, I sometimes feel disheartened and unattractive as great men solely fall for the same types(long hair, light skin, & seemingly perfect).
I know that nobody likes to be alone, but for me it seems like I have waited forever for the opportunity just to sincerely love and be loved. It hurts me when family & friends ask if I am dating or in a relationship and I answer NO!
Being single is a journey that I continue to embrace as I continue to seek God, and live life on purpose. True, unwavering, pure love is an amazing force that I want to experience in its totality and fullness. I look forward to the day I can add to my name, family, and most importantly have a new lifelong man in my life!
Please create an opportunity for me to go back to school!
Thanks in advance.
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.The Lost Ones.
Black History Month began with the somber suicide of Mr. Don Cornelius, and then 10 days later the world was shocked by the untimely death of Whitney Houston. We learn from both of their lives that being successful, gifted, and famous does not exempt anyone from life’s struggles and adversities.
For Don Cornelius to make the critical decision that life was no longer worth living, and to succumb to his struggles is a hard pill to swallow. He was an innovator who saw the importance of creating Soul Train. He changed the way that we saw music, and he gave artists so many opportunities to display their talents. He was valuable to our community.
When I heard of the death of Whitney Houston, I was in complete shock and dismay. Only 48 years of age and her life tragically ended. The thoughts that immediately raced through my mind were “I can only imagine what her daughter is going through.” When I turned on the news, the most unnerving thing that I heard by many media outlets was ” did she succumb to her struggle with drugs?” The media wanted to know how she died. Regardless of how she died, God decided he was ready to take her home. She was valuable to our community. Her music inspired, empowered, encouraged us to be our best and taught us how to love all over again. As she sang, we felt every emotion with her, as she was “every woman” to everyone.
From their deaths, we must value who we are and understand that life is one of the greatest gifts that God has given us. This journey called life is fall from easy, it has its highs, its lows, its struggles, and its strengths but every moment is worth maximizing! Our faith and spirituality are such integral parts of our humanity and it is what sustains us.
R.I.P. to Don Cornelius & Whitney Houston