I see myself working as a serial entrepreneur, lawyer, and philanthropist. Now is the time for me to put these plans to work and really get dirty. I know that I will have ups and downs, hard times, pain, and may know struggle. However, I am assured that I will never know lack or lack the resources or insight that I need to proceed. This Christmas, I don’t want the dumb stuff, I need substance. I am over clothes, and stuff— i am ready to create, build, and establish a living legacy of greatness. I am prepared to work my a** off for what I want. I don’t expect anything to be given to me, but I am prepared to war for who I am supposed to be and where I am supposed to be. This Christmas, I need greater motivation and drive to endure the course. I am thrilled and anxious about 2014, but I am looking forward to furthering my purpose. I am ready to grind it out at a whole notha’ level.
For some odd reason, I feel burned out and unengaged. i feel removed from my work and totally unmotivated. I feel confused as to why I am going through this process. I feel that I need a second wind or merely strength. I feel like I have lost my strength and focus. I need it back quickly as i have a couple more weeks of school to grind this work out and to finish strong. I pray now for focus & STRENGTH!!!!
Words cannot express how much I miss you. Some pain takes true time to heal. Today, I truly miss you. Tomorrow is the first Thanksgiving without you, and the holiday does not feel the same without you. My heart is truly heavy. I pray for strength daily to get through. I miss your words of inspiration, and wisdom. I am grateful for the time that I had with you, but right now I need your strength and inspiration. I pray that you send me an earthly angel to speak to and communicate with. I pray that you give me strength and help me to release all of the negative and stressful feelings that I feel. I pray that you visit me in my travels and in my dreams. I want to see you soon. I love you.
Some days, I even wonder why i am on the journey. Yes, i believe it is my purpose and that I will be successful, but some days the sacrifice is hard. IT IS A REAL STRUGGLE. i literally have to take it one day at a time and trust him solely. I get frustrated, tired, and weary. I trust the process though. Although, this space is so uncomfortable some times, i am comforted knowing that i am in his hand and will. There is peace knowing that i am exactly where i am supposed to be.
I pray that I become stronger in the process, and that I don’t become faint. When I want to give up, I know that I must PUSH, literally and figuratively. i must pray until something happens. I must pray until I get done everything and I must stay focus on the goal.
This journey like any other is purely a faith journey that requires me to stretch myself beyond comfort zone. In the larger scheme of things, I understand this journey is not for me— it is for all of the people that I must work to impact, influence, serve, and assist. I pray that my sacrifice, and discomfort pay off. As long as he gets glory, I am satisfied. God, thank you. I am grateful.
Some days where I am in time and space feels surreal. Although, I am not making big bucks (yet), and no I haven’t started all the many ventures that run rampant in my head, I am grateful for where I am. I am in a happy place. It is uncomfortable some days, it has its highs and lows, but I am where I’m supposed to be. I am on a road to greatness. This law thing is not for the faint at heart, but I’m enduring. I’m progressing and living my dreams. I wish some days that my grandmother were here with me to help me through my low days. I miss her words of encouragement and wisdom. But, I’m so grateful that she was able to invest in me. I promise that i will ensure that her spirit lives on in all that I do. I aspire to be as resilient, strong, courageous, loving, and sincere as she was. She is my hero.