May 2013
8 posts
.Law.
I have no idea exactly what type of law I want to practice, but what is essential is that I work for myself in a small boutique firm. My interests include civil rights issues, political law, family & sports & entertainment(contract drafting & negotiations). I will find my place somewhere in the mix of things.
Today.
It dawned on me today how much I truly miss you. I miss talking to you about my day or us just reminiscing. I miss the spring and summer days when would sit on the front porch or the back deck and listen to wind whistle and birds chirp. Some days, I hate the fact that I can’t just sit and talk to you about life, and the little things. Today, was one of the hard days when I just wish you were...
It. Is. Finished.
Yesterday, I completed my first year of law school. I’m humbled, grateful, relieved and anxious. I am grateful that God helped me get through the hardest nine months. I felt every bit of the labor pains. From having a rocky first semester where I question my purpose, and call to this semester when I loss my grandmother. The days when it was hard to focus and believe in myself. I am grateful...
Once upon a time...
Yesterday, I heard a sermon in which the Pastor taught about channeling negative thinking and focusing on positive outcomes and results. I could not help but think about my daily struggles in law school. The pastor stated that the best way to deter negative thinking is to use my imagination. I guess after 3 final exams and 10 grulling hours, I hope that this semester will be greater than last and...
.break.
School has been challenging and intense this semester. The hardest thing that I have to still get through is the fact that my grandmother is no longer here. Some days I can’t wrap my mind around the fact that she is now an angel. I miss her so much some days. My heart is still trying to process everything that has happened.
This semester has been filled with days when I wanted to give up,...
April 2013
5 posts
my heart.
Dear God,
Thank you for being Lord of my life, and knowing me fully inside & out. God I pray that you continue to let my light shine so that this world will know you & not me.
God you know my desires and at this phase & juncture in my life while in school I desire to excel in my classes. It is my prayer that although i am at the bottom now that you will give me the strength, favor,...
More.
People should have standards and never waiver from what they truly want and desire. It is disappointing to see the people whom I sincerely love settle. I am not in a relationship and have never been truly in love with anyone. Although, it is challenging to sometimes restrict myself, I know that I can not settle for second best when God has called me to have the very best. Sometimes life requires...
.fit.
I am a couple weeks away of completing my first year of law school. However, the is a doubt and emptiness that I sometimes feel. It is not necessarily that I question my abilities, but I wonder why many of the things that I am learning do not come naturally(especially since this is what I was born to do. I know that this process is arduous, but I sometimes wonder why I just don’t get what...
My Portion
Sometimes I sit and marvel about all that I see around me. The abundance that is before me, but God knows in reality that my heart is sometimes heavy because I desire a help meet on this journey. I look at those around me and I celebrate their relationships. But, I truly sometimes long for true intimacy and companionship. I desire something genuine, authentic, and pure.
I will never forget one...
my thoughts and emotions.
I feel peace and sorrow. I’m happy yet sad. Last Thursday, 3.28.13 I lost one of my best friends, confidents, mentors, and the matriarch of my family: my grandmother. She lived 86 joyous and wonderful years. I know she is at peace, but I miss coming home and telling her about my day while we are cooking or watering flowers. I miss her giving me wisdom or sitting up late nights talking to me...
March 2013
5 posts
Glory
This morning my grandmother transitioned to be with God at around 4am, but she was pronounced dead at 7:40am. To know that she made it to heaven makes me want to rejoice. My heart is heavy, but I know that she is my ever present source of strength and help. She is with the greatest Father. I am glad that she was able to see me from infancy until now. She spoke into my life, taught me how to cook,...
Prayer
Dear God,
First and foremost, I want to thank you for being a source of strength and my help, and blessing me with your presence. I am absolutely nothing without you and I thank you for your hand in my life. I ask that you please strengthen and preserve my grandmother. She is in a fight that seems to be getting the best of her. Physically it seems that her heart is weakening and getting worst. I...
Quiet Time
Atlanta skyline as the sun is setting, 76th floor, jazz playing softly in the background, and dinner for 1. This is how I spent my evening last Thursday. It was wonderful just to sit and appreciate the stillness and solitude of life. I spent the evening enjoying my own company and appreciating the little things in life. Sometimes it is wonderful just to take time to inhale and appreciate life, and...
February 2013
6 posts
“No matter how dark & dismal things can be at times, there is always light.”
.heart heavy.
There is this heaviness that is looming over me that I wish to lift or possibly rid myself of. I can’t find the words, but the tears come. When I think about my grandmother, and the health battle that she is facing, it is hard. It is hard to see her literally in a battle has slowly taken its toll. I wish to see her better and able to come home. I try to fight back the tears even as i write...
Greatest Woman Alive
Who is she, you ask?
She is the greatest woman alive
I look at her and see her thrive, despite her struggles and daily adversities.
I admire the woman she is.
She is…
the poster child for determination
the definition of class
the epitome of greatness
honest yet compassionate
a liberated leader and an optimist
a mother of 4, great-grandmother of 3, a friend, mentor, and...
.in awe.
Sometimes, I just sit and think about the goodness and grace of God. I am soooo unworthy of all that he does for me and the many things that he protects me from. I am grateful that he keeps his hand upon me and guides my steps even when I mess up and I don’t do everything that I should do. I am just prayerful that he helps me to be the best steward over everything that he has given me. I am...
December 2012
3 posts
.2013.
Top 13 things I hope to do in 2013
1. Greater discipline in every area of my life
2. Spend the Summer(May-Aug.) in South Africa
3. Secure a White House Internship in the Office of General Counsel in the Fall
4. Start working pt.time back in politics
5. Complete the business plan, secure a loan, and find a space for happy ENDINGS
6. Incorporate & continue to work on iEmpowerME GLLC
7....
top 12 BLESSINGS of 2012
12. Strength
11. Favor
10. Celebrating my 25th bday
9. Staying in MD & Not having to move to MA
8. The vision for happy ENDINGS & iEmpowerME GLLC
7. Being interviewed & considered for a position w/ the First Lady & VP
6. New friends & relationships
5. Family especially my grandmother & my dad
4. Starting law school (J.D. on the way) :)
3. Health
2. Life
1....
.learning daily.
This semester was a complete challenge but it taught me many lessons about life, and myself. I learned that in some areas I lack discipline and my lack of discipline is fatal and detrimental to my success. There are many things that I must do next semester and in life in order to create the life that I desire and in order to fully prosper. This semester I did not fully put in the time, and...
November 2012
9 posts
.countdown.
There are literally two weeks until the end of the semester for me and I feel that my energy and strength has been usurped. I need to remember what inspired me to come to law school. The work and information seems insurmountable, and on a daily basis I am having to give myself pep talks. I am starting to feel extremely taxed and overwhelmed. I need a sense of refreshing & renewal. Lord,...
.millionaire.
As I was sitting in church today, there were many things that I was thinking. As I was praising and thanking God for all of who he is to me, and hearing about living debt free, something in my spirit began speaking and reassuring me of what I already know and believe—I am a millionaire. The millionaire in me has some many ideas and ventures, from law to philanthropy the life that I must...
at. a. crossroad.
I’m at a crux and crucial moment in the semester. There is literally a month left until my last final and I find myself trying to just get through. I feel like the weight of the work and world are on my shoulders somedays, like today. I know that I will prevail, but seeing the light at the end of the tunnel can sometimes be a struggle. Today is just one of those days that I need a break from...
.long road ahead.
It is wonderful that on Tuesday Nov. 6th, the country reelected President Obama for a second term, and also the number of women in the Senate increased from 17 to 20. This is great, but as a nation we have miles to go before we rest. It is sad to say the least that there are not any African Americans in the Unites States Senate, and to date there have only been 6, and one woman. The numbers of...
.2 terms.
On Tuesday, November 6, 2012: History continued as President Obama was elected for a second term. Not only was the experience emotional all over again like in 2008, but it gave me confidence and optimism about the next four years. I am sure that he will exercise presidential privledges and rights this time since he will not seek re-election.
Economical issues, jobs, poverty, taxes, and...
.things i appreciate.
The little things in life matter the most. I appreciate the moments when I feel peace unspeakable, knowing that I serve a God who knows me skin deep: my desires, fears, insecurities, and dreams.
The untold intricacies of who I am that are unknown at face value can be understood without words. The joy from my heart often permeates thinking about all that I have that I don’t deserve. There...
.vote or die.
On Friday, Nov. 2nd, I went to vote for President Obama for a second term. I am extremely nervous yet optimistic. I waited in line 3.5 hours to vote. I have never seen so many people voting or even waiting to vote. While waiting in line, I began thinking about my ancestors who fought so fervently and sincerely to obtain the right to vote. I thought about blacks who could not vote until 1965, and...
October 2012
1 post
.lost.
Somedays I feel lost and unaware of where I am in time and space. I just feel like pieces of me are slowing fading in and out as I strive to become. I feel like I’m shedding dead weight but I often desire more than what I have or where I am. I am totally grateful for where I am and where God is taking me. Somedays, I have to pinch myself to make sure that I’m still in law school and en...
September 2012
2 posts
.New Territory.
The journey began on August 20th. This new journey is one that I have prayed about and anticipated for a long time. I started law school at the University of Maryland Francis King Carey School of Law. Becoming an attorney has always been a dream, but it is a whole new ball game to actually be living my dream. I am so grateful and just thankful that I am in a place where I can devote the majority...
July 2012
4 posts
“Being bold and assertive is not always easy but it is always worth it. I know...”
Dear Lord,
Make me allergic to a job and addicted to my purpose!!!! Help me to focus on what is in front of me and let go of what is behind me.
.release.
Dear God,
Please help me to release from everything that is holding me hostage and stagnating my progress. Law school is where you have called me to be in this season. Let me let go of what will soon be behind me and move toward all that is ahead. Help me to diligently work on launching iEmpowerME and work the purpose you have called me to. Take all the dead weight off of me and help me clear...
June 2012
6 posts
.must haves.
I have met many great men who have unique characteristics, and great personalities. I haven’t met one that I am in awe of or googlely eyed about. However, there are some basic standards that I specifically look for.
Must have 1: A relationship with God
God is a top priority, and is number 1 in life and relationships. Being able to pray with me and having a spiritual grounding is the first...
“ I don’t know what the future holds, but I know who holds the...”
“You must love the people before you can lead the people, and you must serve the...”
– Tavis Smiley & Dr. Cornel West
Promise>Pain
No one likes being disappointed, hurt, or rejected. However, when we are most broken and vulnerable we are often at our best. This is one of the worst feelings in the world to be denied or rejected for something that you sincerely wanted. One of the first things that I tend to do is question God, or his decision. It is so unfortunate, and the pain stings when my very creator tells me...
May 2012
7 posts
